-drink drink-

Christ. I can't get ice without the dogs wanting some ice. I knew Arden would want some, but Amato doesn't like ice. But he followed me out of the kitchen with that dopey look anyway, wanting one.
So I gave him one... -sigh-

To hopefully put me asleep I was going through blogs and blogs, and there was one with a quiz. You know, those stupid ridiculous filling out things? I fucking hate them. So, I copied it, and now I'm pasting it. Because I figure it'd put me to sleep. So here we go.

1. How long will you wait for someone?
Not very long at all. I'm severely impatient.

2.What do you want to do now?
Drink more water and sleep!

3.If there’s a miracle,what would you long for?
Um. Well I fear my mother would die of skin cancer, so I'd wish for them to fix that. But they've already found a cure... to clone skin cells. How clever. So anyhow, I don't know. A miracle.. I don't really believe in those. Maybe 'miraculously' I could be a famous writer with millions in my pocket overnight. That would be cool. But I would have to finish a novel at some point, and I've never finished them. Always started them.

4.Where do you wish to die?
I know this sounds lame, but probably in someones arms.

5.Do you hate your friends sometimes?
Not hate, per se.

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain
Do I believe? What?... well I mean, sometimes if the conditions are right and it's sunny after raining and the air is calm.. with mist still falling ... then yeah, I believe I can see the rainbow. I don't imagine it. What the fuck on that question.

7.What are the impossible things you wish to do?
Fly. By myself, no machine required.

8.Is there something you wished never happen?
No. I've always learned from my past.

9.Are you happy with your life now?
I suppose. I know things are going good, I just feel empty because I'm not actually doing anything.

10.What if your crush ask you out?
Ask me out? don't you mean "asked" me out? Whoever wrote this is bothering me. Anyhow... he did a long time ago.

11.What will you do if you’re bored?
Blog, read, write, or doodle. All that art crap.

12.What feelings do you hate most?
Stress and frustration.

13.If you’re seperated from your loved one(s) for quite a period of time,what will u tell them?
.... "what will u tell them".... "what will YOU tell them?" well. That I miss them a lot and I can't wait to see them.

14.What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
Working at Chapters, regular monies, maybe being able to sleep. And perhaps getting more energized.

Well that was absolutely stupid. I hate quizzes. But I do feel more tired. That's good.
I'm going to be very tired at work tomorrow...
V.V

Doomsday.UNRATED.DVDRip.XviD-LMG
Dno i w ogóle tragedia. Niby celowo ten kicz, ale połączenie jakichś psychodelicznych punków z miasta z średniowiecznymi rycerzami jest bezsensowne. I jeszcze satelita szpiegowski, wojskowy, któremu udaje się zrobić fotki zaledwie paru osobom, podczas gdy tam jest ich naprawdę sporo. Żałosne.

Hannibal.Rising.2007.UNRATED.READNFO.DVDRip.XviD-DiAMOND
Naprawdę niezły. Może wschodnie ostrza mało pasują do Hannibala, ale i tak duży plus za Litwę w czasie wojny. I Mischę - bo to też było ciekawe. Troszkę rozczarowująca końcówka, ale i tak genialny film po Doomsday'u.

Love.and.Other.Disasters.2007.DVDRip.XviD-VoMiT
Za późno się zorientowałem, że już to widziałem. Ale i tak całkiem zabawna komedia - miło się ją z Sai oglądało. Tylko czemu to jak FS wyglądało? Dziwne :/

Kill.Bill.Volume.2.DVDRip.XviD-DiAMOND
Dawno temu oglądałem jedynkę, więc teraz dwójkę chciałem zobaczyć. Niestety, brakowało dobrych kawałków muzycznych - uwielbiam gwizd Elle (bo to chyba ona gwizdała w pierwszej części, nie?). Za to sceny z Pai'em były niezłe.

Speed.Racer.SCREENER.XviD-NEPTUNE
Zmarnowany potencjał. Mogło być fajnie, jak w Transformerach, tymczasem słabizna wyszła. Poszatkowany film, przejścia pomiędzy przeszłością a teraźniejszością mi się nie podobały. I szkoda, że wyścigi nie były ciekawsze... R5 teraz wyszło (uwaga na wersję iVE - znuke'owana), to przynajmniej lepszy obraz jest.

Awake.DVDRip.XviD-DiAMOND
Przerażający. Naprawdę. I dlatego nienawidzę operacji. Anyway, niezły - dokładnie tak, jak Obi mówił.
PS. Wiecie, że tytuł innego filmu z "awake" - Wide Awake - przetłumaczono na polski jako Dziadek i ja? Rozumiem wiele, ale wolę tytuły zbliżone do oryginalnych, a nie do tego, co może być w treści filmu.

For some reason I have an overactive mind during the night-time hours. When I should be snoozing, I'm thinking about work, or planning what to cook at the weekend, or wondering if the kohl rabi I've just planted will come out ok. The Boy has absolutely no troubles on this front - quite the opposite in fact, he seems to slip into power mode nap whenever he's not moving.

The night before last, I was awake until 1am thinking about inane rubbish. Last night I headed to bed optimistic of getting some good zeds, but once again the brain was off and I was planning our crop rotation for next year. I am such a freak! Anyhoo, last night once I did drop off, external forces thwarted my snooze - with a 3.30am arrival of the Police to our street.

This has happened before but on this occasion, the police dogs were sniffing round the house opposite ours instead of yapping at a wannabe car thief in our front garden. Two coppers were pegging it round looking for something or someone. It was all rather exciting and we checked our back garden in case the offenders were holed up there. No such drama however and 15 mins later the street was back to its normal quietness. That is, until a fire engine came up the street then spent about 20mins reversing with the accompanying "beep...beep" soundtrack. Nice, thanks.

Last night I was thankfully able to slip back into sleep relatively quickly, probably because I was so knacked from my earlier mind wanderings. But it's gotta stop! Not least because I'm getting serious bags under the eyes and despite using a good night cream and eye serum (now I'm old) they aren't getting better - and I'm thinking Bridal, ladies, I have (almost exactly) one year to get utterly gorgeousness sorted!! (on another Bridezilla note, I went to the garden centre last night and ended up bying a hydrangea plant solely because it was called "The Bride". It better not die!)

I've come across magazine articles which recommend hot milk or chamomile tea before bed, a warm bath, lavender oil on pillows etc. This piece on sleep tips says "Don’t make bedtime the time to solve your problems. Make a to do list for the next day then try to clear your mind."

But come on, do these really work? Seems like a whole lot of faffing to me. Wine is more my style - so tonight I'm doing alcohol therapy - a few glasses before I go up the wooden hill to help me on my way. Can't decide tho if empty calories are a lesser evil than black bags under the eyes.

It's Beautiful…

Lost in this crazy world of emotions…

Drowning in my tears and yet soaring on my hopes for the future.

Torn between my passion and my call…

Both of them are one in the same!

How ironic isn't it!

Confusing and yet so clear the direction I must go.

Still, painful is the choice as my feelings are so strong.

My heart cries out to stay, but my Spirit says go and soar on eagle's wings.

I am excited…

I am scared…

I am happy…

I am sad…

I am sure…

And still I question?

Why?

Why is it so hard to trust?

Why is it so hard to step out in faith?

I thought I was out of my comfort zone here but I guess the reality is I am very comfortable!

Maybe that's why I have to go…

It's time for God to move me out of my comfort zone again!

I have learned so much and yet I still have so much to learn.

So much growing to do even still!

It's a process… a process that I will go through till the day I go home!

It hurts and it's hard... and yet it's joyous…

I glow from the inside out in anticipation for what the future holds, what God has in store…

It's so scary... and yet in the same breath…

It's beautiful…

~Tracy Brown July 21st, 2008~

Woke up to a day I wish I never would have. I want to fast forward/skip through it. I feel that way during most days although there are exceptions. It makes me wonder if living through the days instead of skipping them is really worth it, is there anything to be gained? I'm an impatient man, let's just get to the end and spend our days looking back. Let's call it a day, even upon waking. You can have all the popcorn.

I wake up everyday and walk to the kitchen where there are usually two people already. They give me no offensive glances, not anymore, I think it's past that. Instead, I can "feel" what their thinking, how they're feeling. I stumble in, feeling entirely lost in a dream I never wanted to have, and I'm not allowed to show it. If I don't speak then it upsets the others. And considering I loath complaining I usually don't ever say anything, a trait I've learned very early on in my life. I am only making things worse by typing this, but I feel...like I'm not allowed to feel this. Somehow I feel I'm doing something wrong by being this way.

Today is a day where nothing has a point. Nothing is enough to smile, nothing is enough to want to try.

I'd lock myself in my room if I had a lock. And I'd lock myself in my room if I knew no one would knock.

I used to look at sleep as my refuge, my one hope to escape the day. But now I hate going to sleep, I always know that everything will be exactly the same when I wake. Maybe that's why I have sleeping problems, the night is entirely mine. No bothers, no worries, no talking, no footsteps, no arguing, no complaining, no noise except the noise I make...I feel at peace. I just wish I could fall into a nice dream and never return.

.

I feel that I am simply a figure on a screen that pleases people with a story.
They jump ahead and then rewind, rewatching the most painful memories as slight curves begin to inch across their faces.
A wild smile that lights up eyes and hastens breath, that reacts to the movements of my body in pixels within a static picture.
They insist the others to watch and share their smiles, to share their words and curses and names.
And after the movie plays, and my life fades out with rolling white letters, they replay the images as they lay awake in bed each night.
They can't help but reform the smiles with open eyes and with lids that never close upon tears.
And always I am in mind.
And always I am in scene, always in frame, ready to begin my role again upon my empty, pointless stage.
The applause rings through hollow ears as life fades to dark.
And as the words again roll to a close, I see one final name lifted high upon invisible strings.
The syllables create shudders, and the end creates tears.
For I will always be alone on this stage, playing my part as a part of this show.
And as I trace my steps through these scenes, I'll always be thinking of the final white words written upon a black stretch of void.
I see a name.
The name is my own.

Wide Awake (Remix of Sunday’s sermon – audio download - http://www.firstgrandville.org/content.cfm?id=213&category_id=4 )

What is keeping you awake at night?

Many things. Finances. Guilt. Keeping a job. Finding a job. The marriage or relationship. The diagnosis. Caring for adult parents. An addiction. Trying to raise kids. The past. It could be many things…

Me? For many years now, what keeps me up at night are a bunch of people – no, not noisy neighbors J. In my lifetime, I have cared for a lot of people who have struggled with things – really hard things. And it has given me purpose. I wouldn’t change a thing. But I do often find myself awake, wide awake at night – sometimes on purpose, sometimes not. Part of it is “I wonder if the late night call is going to come” – for which I will be ready, if it ever does. There was a time when I kept a set of clothes out each night as well as a planned place of refuge because of the situation this friend was going through. God hears lots of prayers from me in the early morning hours.

Ministry or not, I have always been the kind of person that wanted to do whatever I could to help those struggling with difficult things. How many times have I prayed for it (whatever it was/is) to go away? And as things go, it usually doesn’t happen that way. So I guess I always thought that by being awake, being ready to help at any time of night – phone call, visit, whatever, that and prayer was the next best thing I could do.

My favorite song is “Bad” by U2 and it is my favorite because it so accurately captures and articulates this desire to care for others in extraordinary circumstances – but also the futility of it. It is my anthem in many ways. Bono wrote in response to a friend he was helping through a heroin addiction. “I’m wide awake, wide awake, I’m not sleeping,” the refrain goes. I have found one of the best live versions of this song, in which he explains the story behind the song and then sings it with tremendous passion. It’s often how I feel. Here is the link, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o7KjiDZMD5o. I like to think that I am wide awake for these people. I want them to know I am, or that I at least try.

But here’s the thing. At some point, I will fall asleep. As passionate as I may feel about staying wide awake for others, I can’t help it. Bono will fall asleep too. We are human. There is no conceivable way of me staying awake and “being ready” at all times. And it is this way for all of us, no matter what may be keeping us up at night.

Some good news?

There is someone who can literally, actually stay wide awake all the time – and does. He’s watching over us right now.

“The Lord is your protector, and he won’t sleep or let you stumble. The protector of Israel doesn’t doze or ever get drowsy (Psalm 121:3-4).”

Whatever is keeping us awake at night, there is somebody who is already on it. Already knows about it, already working on it. There is nothing that He is going to miss in our lives because He never sleeps, never has to.

Sometimes, often at night, I can feel Him watching me. It is hard to describe and I have to be in a very peaceful state. But I know He is watching, watching over me.

And He is watching over you too, whether you know it or not, whether you can feel it or not.

I may still be wide awake at night thinking about some people. But they are in much better hands than mine – the hands of the One who does not sleep or slumber – who watches over are coming in and our going out forevermore (Psalm 121:8).

We miss out on so much comfort and assurance and sleep when we try to take on and handle things that are really only for Him to handle. The old hymn says, “This is my Father’s world. O let me ne’er forget that oft the wrong seems oft so strong, God is the ruler yet. This is my Father’s world: why should my heart be sad? The Lord is King; let the heavens ring! God reigns; let the earth be glad.”

We miss out on so much comfort and assurance and sleep and joy when we keep thinking that it is our world, our problems, our struggles, when it is and always has been and always be our Father’s world…

Discussion Questions

1. What are the things keeping you awake at night? Has staying awake at night solved any of them yet?
2. Why do we find it so hard to hand things over to God?
3. What keeps you from living as if the Lord never sleeps while watching over you? What does living in that reality look like?
4. What is one thing you can give over to the Lord to handle today?

I've got a friend of mine who loved a cute girl who was 2 years older than him but he didn't take it in consideration. I really thought that the two of them shall one day be dating because they were lovely to look at when they were walking after the bible school each week. They were just friend at these times. One day, we were all invited to go to the beach and on this day, two friend arranged for a private moment between these two so that the guy could tell the girl what he felt for her. But on this day, the girl revealed she had a boyfriend. Later on I heard the story and I was really sad for the guy, I knew he loved that girl so dearly.
Some years later, two years later I think, the guy met another girl and fell in love with her (I forgot to tell that he managed to forget the first girl in God knows what way). He fell in love with that girl and when he told the girl that he loved her, the parents (the mom) of the girl said that she didn't want the
girl to date that guy. And again he found himself loving a girl that didn't love him back (the girl indeed wasn't interested with him).

This might seem odd, funny that this guy is so bad of luck or sad but it is a true story and let me tell you the life of these three person. The first girl when abroad with her boyfriend which is now her husband, the second girl is dating a friend of mine (and a friend of my first unlucky friend) and the friend is now planning to get married to another girl he met on his workplace.

Now is my conclusion, I don't know whether my (unlucky) friend managed to forget that second girl because he was really really really in love with the girl but I know that today he is happy living with his future wife. This is because there is one person created for each of us, we are only half until we meet the second half, then we are complete, we are one. So, if you found a girl that doesn't loves you back, as hard it might be to forget her, one day, you will be able to forgets her but in the mean time, don't let the one who loves you go away, stay awake and look for the signs because the one who loves you and who you will love might be passing in front of you.

Now friends, just stay awake and please cheerio...

Tür : Gerilim / Dram
Gösterim Tarihi : 21 Mart 2008
Yönetmen : Joby Harold
Senaryo : Joby Harold
Görüntü Yönetmeni : Russell Carpenter
Müzik : Samuel Sim
Yapım : 2007, ABD

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Hey folks!  It is Friday here in the Big Mango just before Noon and I'm sitting here munching on some instant oatmeal and sipping my coffee.  It's been really warm here in the capital this past week, or "stonking hot," to borrow a phrase from a close friend.  Went to see Hellboy 2 last night at the local cinema up to road at Siam Paragon, and throughly enjoyed the film.  The film was directed by Guillermo del Toro who also directed Pan's Labyrinth so the same style of fantasy creatures inhabit the shadow parts of our world.   I really enjoy his spin on fantasy as the classic fairy tales creatures we heard about growing up come to life with a menacing edge to them.  His artistic vision and touch is kind of dark, and after seeing 3 of his movies now I'm definitely a fan.  However, having said that, I'm a huge fantasy/sci-fiction from way back so i'm sure that has something to do with it as well.  I'm glad Hollywood has seemed to run out of original script ideas, cause I'm more than pleased with the amount of sci fi, fantasy and super hero movies that it keeps churning out.  Next up, I will be off to see the lastest Batman reincarnation with the late Heath Ledger starring as the Joker.

Anyways, enough of  my nerdy movie tastes right?  What i really wanted to sit here and talk to you about today is insomnia.  I've probably talked about it before, but I seem to get a case of severe insomnia with every single long holiday break that rolls around for me.  I go to bed later and later every night, until I'm stuck in a routine of going to bed around 4 AM and getting up at noon or 1 PM every single day.  It gradually happens over the course of about a week, until one night I look up and I'm sitting here surfing the net wide awake at 4 AM.  Then if i actively try to change the pattern I always fall into then I start to run into trouble.  I try setting the alarm for about 9 AM, but the sleep of the dead takes me when I finally do doze off to sleep in the wee hours of the morning and absolutely nothing can rouse me.  Also, If i try to go to bed earlier I just lay there staring into the darkness of my room, or counting the imperfections on the ceiling.  My mind races through a million random thoughts and sleep never comes no matter how much i toss and turn.  I've tried to lay there and clear my mind, but even the active thought of doing that keeps my mind occupied.  I've been like this since my early teens, and I guess I've no hope of being able to change it now.  However, I wonder if anyone else out there suffers from a similar problem?  Anyways, I just wanted to check in with you guys and share what I've been doing this week.  I should get a shower and attempt to have at least half a productive day here so I'll get going.  I hope everyone has a great weekend ahead, and I'll be back to post soon.  Much love to you from Bangkok and as always thanks so much for stopping by to read my rambles.

Ways to Make Getting Up in the Morning Easier

1. Don't Stalk the Clock. Setting three (or more) alarms over an hour is not a good way to wake up in the morning. Opening your eyes to glance at the time every few minutes will fill you with dread and worry about the moment that clock hits the time that you actually need to get out of bed. Laying there thinking about getting up will only make it harder. The solution?

2. Set ONE Alarm. Put the alarm clock (or cell phone) on the other side of the bedroom. Set it for the time you actually need to comfortably get ready for the day. By setting it across the room, you'll need to get out of bed to turn it off. This is they key here. When you walk across the room, do not just turn it off and go back to bed. The solution?

3. Go to the Bathroom. Walk your tired and cranky butt to the bathroom. Use the bathroom. Wash your hands, then wash your face. Take some deep breaths and stretch. You may even drink some water before going to bed in the evenings so you'll need to use the bathroom even more. As you know, you can't lie in bed all day. At some point, you will need to get up. The key is avoiding hopping back into bed once you do get up.

4. LIGHT. Turn on the lights and open the windows. If it's still dark outside (I feel your pain) turn on all the lights. Your bedroom, living room, bathroom, etc. The light will spark your brain into daytime mode to help you get out of sleep mode.

5. Sound. Turn on the television or radio. If you feel extra cranky in the mornings, turning on a favorite CD (and singing or dancing along) will surely brighten your mood on those more difficult mornings.

6. Positive Thoughts. If you're lying in bed thinking about how horrible your day is going to be, you're never going to get out of bed. You might have a horrible day ahead of you - boring work, challenging work, dealing with difficult people, or maybe you know you're going to get in trouble from your boss. Lingering on the bad things ahead while you're lying in bed in the morning (or night) will make it nearly impossible to get up and have a successful morning or day. Set those thoughts aside. Tell yourself that you will worry about those later. Now start talking positively to yourself (in your head or out loud if you live alone). Some examples: I'm strong, I'm smart, I'm capable, I can do this, I will do something fun today, I am loved, I feel good, I feel great, I feel strong...and repeat this over and over and over until you start to feel better.

7. E-mail. Instead of hopping back into bed, commit yourself to writing one positive e-mail to someone you care about each morning. Writing something encouraging to someone else will help you feel better about yourself, about the day ahead - which will hopefully prevent you from groaning your way back into bed.

8. Get enough sleep. This one is pretty obvious. If you feel rested, you won't have as much need to yank the covers over your face to squeeze in a few extra minutes. Go to bed and go to sleep!!

9. One good thing. Before you go to sleep. Write down (on your computer, on paper, on a whiteboard, anywhere) ONE good thing you get to do the next day. As soon as that alarm charms, think about that one thing as you stumble across the room to turn it off. Get excited about your day! Even if it's only for ONE thing.

10. Annoying Pets. Sometimes it's a lot easier to do things for others than for ourselves. Get an annoying pet who annoys you in the morning to take them out. They'll help you get your lazy bum out of bed. And when you let them back in, why don't you play for a minute? Throw their ball, rub their bellies, and show them some love. The combination of activity and showing love will make your day easier to start.

11. Bribe yourself. If you're continuously struggling with getting up in the morning, bribe yourself. You know yourself best, so you'll know what will be most effective. Choose something small and tangible. And make it daily, so there's a reward every morning. For example, "When I get up without crawling back into bed, I get a yogurt parfait from McDonald's." Condition your body to enjoy getting up in the morning. Scary, I know.

Here's another good resource: How to Get Up Right Away When Your Alarm Goes Off

Good night and Good luck!

T o d a y, sleeping in means getting up at 0630 in time to get ready to start a full day of work, duty, errands, family time, and being in bed no later than midnight.

When did I get so old?

:-)

Esta banda es que me cambia el chip, son demasié y pronostico que en pocos años les pasará como a Opeth, se harán populares y es que con tres discazos en su haber no dejan de experimentar pero manteniendo un estilo muy partícular.

Aunque he leido varias críticas diciendo que se basan en el sonido de Messugah, no entiendo como me pueden encantar estos holandeses y sin embargo no le encuentro la "gracia" a Messugah.

En fin, caprichos del oido...

Ya lo sabes, tercer corte de su último disco "Silhouettes" de este mismo año. Todo un discazo.

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Is it just us, or does it seem like everyone is either searching for that little something to get a competitive edge or simply struggling to keep up?

Americans are 24-7_365, I am guilty of swilling espresso as I  burn the candle at both ends to make sure my day is well productive. But that doesn't disturb us nearly as much as the overwhelming amount of highly caffeinated "energy" products being marketed to help stimulate our competitive kids. Snackfood maker Mars has even released a new "Snickers Charged," -so even candy can now give you an extra nudge.

The pharmaceutical industry is, of course, lurking right there with a whole slew of cognitive enhancers to push our bodies and brains to the max!

As a society, we tend to reflexively deride and often morally condemn the instant fix (While at the same time scrambling for it). But what about drugs that can instantly improve your cognitive functioning? Not a good idea, right? They're unfair- like steroids for the brain. Until you consider the pilot who's flying your plane for the next 10 hours or the neurosurgeon operating on your mom. Maybe a hit of Provigil doesn't sound like suck a bad idea.

There's nothing earth-shattering or radical about the idea of "cognitive enhancers." Caffeine and nicotine are two old-school boosters. Many studies have proven that both help maintain attention, highten alertness and, of course, keep people awake. Research has also shown that caffeine possesses cognition-enhancing properties that can enhance higher cognitive functions like short- and long-term memory and perceptual sensitivity.

But the java jolt isn't enough for those seeking the new "smart drugs" or "nootropics," many of which were orginally developed to treat neurological or mental disorders such as Parkinson's disearse.

Two of the drugs which are now being used as cognitive enhancers, donepezil and tacrine were orginally approved in the United States for treatment of Alzheimers. A study published in the journal Neurology found that commerical pilots who took 5 milligrams of donepezil for one month performed better than pilots on a placebo when asked to fly a Cessna 172 on a flight simulator. There was a significant difference between the groups in the effectiveness with which they dealth with emergencies.

Then there's Ritalin, the drug of choice on college campuses for sleep-deprived students struggling to pull all nighters, complete term papers, even boost concentration during exams.
Drugs like Ritalin and Adderall are commonly prescribed to treat attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD). At recommended doses, these medications can accelerate the centeral nervous system, heightening concentration and alertness.

But as a "smart drug," Ritalin may not be quite so smart. Never mind the fact that sharing prescription medicine is a felony drug offense in most states- taking excessively high doses of Ritalin can increase the risk for neurological and heart-related symptoms.

The current superstar of prescription stimulants is Provigil (Modafinild), first approved as a treatment for narcolepsy. A secondary indication was to treat something called Shift Work Sleep Disorder (SWSD), a sleep disorder that affects people who frequently work schedules that resist the bodys' natural Circadian rhythm, such as night shifts or rotating shifts. We both know doctors who regularly use Provigil.

Provigil can keep a person awake and alert for 90 hours straight, with none of the jitteriness, impaired concentration, "rebound effect," or risk of addiction associated with amphetamines or even coffee.

Not surprisingly, Provigil is reportedly popular with the U.S. Air Force, and has been used more than 150 times this year by bomber crews to ward off fatugue on missions of mare than 12 hours.

Provigil seems to safely bolster alertness for day at a time wiht few side effects, but its long-term effects have not been sufficiently studied to completely rule out all potential problems.

A couple of final points, I have talked to quite a few parents on this topic of cognitive enhancers, and the issue of "fairness" invariably comes up. For instance, do you want your kid taking the SATs and competing with a bunch of other kids who are tweaking on Provigil? Hopefully, we will have all instilled in them an awareness of the profound difference between the abilty to perform will on standardized tests and the capacity for intellectual discovery, innovation and creativity, and humane conduct.

La historia se repite. Una interesante premisa que poco a poco se va desdibujando hasta transformarse en una cosa muy distinta a lo que quiso ser originalmente. Lo que llama la atención es que le ocurrió a Jumper, también protagonizada por Hayden Christensen, lo cual podría ser considerada simplemente una coincidencia... tal vez lo sea. Lo que no es coincidencia es que en ambas películas Christensen ofrece una interpretación espantosa, demostrando claramente que ha sido suertudo a la hora de recibir y aceptar proyectos que lo ponen en el rol protagónico. Haciendo un paralelismo, Mark Hamill merecería al menos una segunda, tercera o cuarta oportunidad, ya que aunque también es un actor del montón, es sin duda mejor interpretador que Christensen.

Clay Beresford (Hayden Christensen) es un pendejo millonario, dueño de medio Nueva York, a traves de una corporación heredada de su fallecido padre, y de un bondadoso, pero fallado corazón. Beresfold necesita urgentemente un transplante, siempre una operación peligrosa, lo cual le es recordado constantemente por su médico Jack Harper (Terrence Howard), un buen tipo que lo atendió cuando sufrió su primer infarto. Harper y Beresfold se hacen buenos amigos, tal vez porque este último carece de personas cercanas a su vida, aparte de su bella madre Lilith (Lena Olin) y su novia secreta Sam (Jessica Alba). De Beresford sabemos poco, es un tipo raro, bondadoso, pero apartado, constantemente sonriente, pero apenado. Se nota que tiene fantasmas en su pasado, recuerdos que quiere olvidar. Al ingresar al pabellón Beresfold se deja ir, aceptando lo que su destino le depare, sin embargo, hay algo que anda mal. Se supone que debe estar anestesiado, que no debe escuchar ni sentir nada, pero escucha lo que habla el equipo médico, siente como le cortan la piel... ¡Beresfold está despierto! Pero no se puede mover o gritar para avisarle a los médicos... este debe ser uno de los mayores terrores que el cine ha podido retratar, ya que es un terror impactantemente posible (aunque dificil que ocurra). Como si eso no fuera suficiente, el terror y el dolor de Beresfold serán mayores al escuchar como se ha vuelto en víctima de un complot que buscará no sólo arrebatarle toda su fortuna, sino que también su muerte.

La premisa sin duda que es lo suficientemente interesante como para convertir a esta película en una cinta de drama/suspenso poderosa, sin embargo, la situación no convence, probablemente porque Christensen no es el actor más adecuado para ese rol... o para cualquier rol en realidad. Es un muy mal actor, con un registro facial limitadísimo. Lo peor es que uno acepta, aveces, ver que un actor repita personaje... John Cusack, Jeff Goldblum o Shia LaBeouf han repetido sus personajes de forma constante, pero no cansan, no aburren. Son actores con ángel, lo cual Christensen no tiene. A sus 26 años sigue viéndose como un pendejo odioso y actuando como alguien que recién está iniciándose en la actuación (y podría ser así, pero lleva varios protagónicos). El peso dramático que debería aportar brilla por su ausencia y eso hace que el resto del relato se desmorone. Ni siquiera con las buenas actuaciones de Lena Olin y Terrence Howard salvan este relato que deja de lado la credibilidad y se transforma en un extraño mix, más cercano a la ciencia ficción clase B. Jessica Alba está bastante bien... no sean mal pensados, está bien por las razones obvias, pero también está bien en su interpretación, de la mujer que tiene que aceptar llevar un noviazgo en secreto con el personaje de Christensen, para evitar las críticas de su madre.

A pesar de todo esto, Joby Harold, director y escritor de esta cinta, hace algo valioso, al presentarnos una historia original y con gran potencial. Por ser su opera prima, creo que le podemos perdonar algunas cosas, pero en general hace un trabajo aceptable, sobre todo al presentarnos sus giros de tuerca y al mostrarnos los recuerdos del personaje de Christensen. Tal vez culpar a Anakin de que la película no funcione es demasiado, sin embargo, su rol es demasiado importante como para dejarselo a alguien con tan pocas habilidades. Es de esperar que el siguiente trabajo de Harold sea mejor.

TRAILER: AWAKE

FICHA TÉCNICA
Nombre: Awake
Año: 2007
Duración: 84 minutos
Dirigida y escrita por: Joby Harold
Protagonizada por: Hayden Christensen, Jessica Alba, Terrence Howard, Lena Olin, Christopher McDonald y Arliss Howard
Producida por: GreeneStreet Films, The Weinstein Company, Open City Films

Photos: maui, oceanview, beaches, sunsets, dolphins, Sundance and Katie, their children and first grandchild

Music: Kirtana CD, “Falling Awake” with “Ramana’s Song;” Kirtana CD, “This Embrace” with “A Deeper Surrender;” and John Astin CD, “Already Shining” with “Love, Serve and Remember”

Subjects: looking within, enlightened relationship, being now, Katie meets Sundance, what is awakening, practices, being the Beloved, only this love, looking for love in all the wrong places, realizing fulfillment, concepts, conditioning, writing their books with desks side by side, “Awake Joy” book summary, why Katie wrote “Awake Joy,” what is satsang, core theme of “Free Spirit,” the pain gap, women and emotion and enlightenment, where are you looking from, the eyewitness, I am the witness only, reference points, between two worlds, Sundance and Katie Tour Schedule 2008.

Free Video Library at:

www.KatieDavis.org, www.SundanceBurke.org, www.SundanceandKatie.org

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(60 minutes) Sundance Burke, author of “Free Spirit: A Guide to Enlightened Being” and Katie Davis, author of “Awake Joy: The Essence of Enlightenment” is interviewed by Padma of Beauty Truth on a Vancouver BC Radio Show. The free podcast presents a beautiful slide show with music by Kirtana (www.Kirtana.com) and John Astin (www.integrativearts.com/blog).

Photos: maui, oceanview, beaches, sunsets, dolphins, Sundance and Katie, their children and first grandchild

Music: Kirtana CD, “Falling Awake” with “Ramana’s Song;” Kirtana CD, “This Embrace” with “A Deeper Surrender;” and John Astin CD, “Already Shining” with “Love, Serve and Remember”

Subjects: looking within, enlightened relationship, being now, Katie meets Sundance, what is awakening, practices, being the Beloved, only this love, looking for love in all the wrong places, realizing fulfillment, concepts, conditioning, writing their books with desks side by side, “Awake Joy” book summary, why Katie wrote “Awake Joy,” what is satsang, core theme of “Free Spirit,” the pain gap, women and emotion and enlightenment, where are you looking from, the eyewitness, I am the witness only, reference points, between two worlds, Sundance and Katie Tour Schedule 2008.

Free Video Library at:

www.KatieDavis.org, www.SundanceBurke.org, www.SundanceandKatie.org

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2008 - Northern Lights

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Country : USA
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Here at Sink to See we'd like to take a moment to announce that Shine On has made its way into the living rooms of American television by way of ABC's Primetime series "The Secret Life of the American Teenager"

Created by Brenda Hampton, 7th Heaven. With Molly Ringwald, Josie Bissett, Leslie Del Rosario, John Schneider, Allen Evangelista, . A look at the relationship between teenagers.

Series Cast

	Molly Ringwald	...	Anne (10 episodes, 2008)
	Josie Bissett	...	Kathleen (10 episodes, 2008)
	Leslie Del Rosario	...	Jenna (10 episodes, 2008)
	John Schneider	...	Marshall (10 episodes, 2008)
	Allen Evangelista	...	Henry Miller / ... (9 episodes, 2008)

Additional Cast:

	Shailene Woodley	...	Amy Juergens (2 episodes, 2008)
	India Eisley	...	Ashley Juergens (2 episodes, 2008)
	Kenny Baumann	...	Ben Boykewich (2 episodes, 2008)
	Daren Kagasoff	...	Ricky Underwood (2 episodes, 2008)
	Megan Park	...	Grace Bowman (2 episodes, 2008)
	Mark Derwin	...	George Juergens / ... (2 episodes, 2008)
	Greg Finley	...	Jack Pappas (2 episodes, 2008)
	Renee Olstead	...	Madison (2 episodes, 2008)
	Jorge Pallo	...	Marcelino (Marc) Molina / ... (2 episodes, 2008)
	Sagine	...	Cheerleader (2 episodes, 2008)
	Camille Winbush	...	Lauren (2 episodes, 2008)
	Amy Rider	...	Alice Valko (unknown episodes, 2008)
	Steve Schirripa	...	Leo (unknown episodes, 2008)
	Troy Harris	...	Football Player / ... (unknown episodes, 2008)
	Ernie Hudson	...	Dr. Fields (unknown episodes, 2008)
	Angela Nikas	...	Gossiping Girl (unknown episodes, 2008)
	Paola Turbay	...	Cindy Lee (unknown episodes, 2008)

but I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired

I know it seems
that I don't care
but something in me
does, I swear
I don't remember
all last year
I left you awake
to cry the tears
while I was dreaming in streams
flowing between the shores
of joy and sadness
I'm drowning
save me
wake me up

I should warn you
I go to sleep
you won't know when I go to sleep
'cause I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired

I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired

I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired

I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired
I'm not tired

I just sleep

Dancers: Karen Chuang, Johnny Erasme, Ashley Galvan, Shane Harper, Aubree Storm, Hefa Tuita