I've decided to lose some piercings, and change the earrings in some others.  Which means: a) I took out 4 of my 6 lobe piercings (only the bottom one still has earrings in); b) changed my tragus ring for a stud like the one I sometimes wear in my lip; and c) put the ring that was in my tragus into my upper cartilage since it's smaller than the previous ring.  Ideally I want a smaller barbell in my rook on the other side, but that can wait.  And I've started wearing a lip ring rather than a stud most of the time.  I like it better.

I'm still working on re-arranging my morning and night-time routines so that they fit better.  It'll most likely begin to click once school starts.  For now, my earlier bedtimes mean I may not be blogging as much as I'd like.  Or doing as much yoga.  Or even as much journal writing.  But things shall get better.

I should go get ready for work right now.  Only 2 shifts left at Pier 1!!

With the presence of so many no-good people in the United States of America you must ask the age old question..

What Came first, the Chicken or the Egg?

Why do black people kill, deal drugs and break the worst laws and end up in prison where they make up around 50% of the population even though they make up a small percentage of the entire population of the United States?

Why do Mexicans make up another large chunk of the prison population? Why are neo- white trash scumbags who run the country, break laws and undermine the integrity of our government get off with a slap on the wrist?

Why do redneck white trash, and Asian nerds enter schools and malls with machine guns and mow down fat American slobs?

The problem has been isolated in the last 20 years but no doubt will increase at an alarming rate. Why will mall shootings, school murder rampages, and terrorist acts increase dramatically in the next 10 years?

American Youth are a Ticking Time Bomb which will Destroy America in the Near Future

American youth are worst than maximum security death row inmates. Unlike prison inmates youth are free to plot horrendous, terrorist acts when they're not playing video games, watching TV or eating fast food.

The youth of America have less and less social skills. They learn by watching YouTube videos, reading myspace posts, playing video games and watching MTV.

We can all pray that America's youth will not get the crazy idea to watch the news. The scary fact is this will inevitably happen and America's youth's potential for creating the death and destruction of America is 1,000x greater than Osama Bin Laden and Al Qaeda and Saddam Hussein's ghost with his supernatural weapons of mass destruction.

American youth care nothing about people other than themselves. They often don't even care about themselves, sitting home all day on the internet and playing video games or filming videos for YouTube.

They eat fast food, get fat and diseased while they continuously deface their body with tattoos and piercings.

They want the car and jewelery which the American athlete or rap star flaunts on MTV. They want the car that the rich kids parents give them and they will do all heinous acts to get it.

Is this because they were born inherently evil or is it the fault of America? We will never know.

The fact that America's youth is no good and is contributing less and less to the success of America as a young country. In fact the American youth is simply just one of many, actually one of 58 reasons to hate America.

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Extreme Outward Expression = Extreme Inward Disaster

I bet her partents are greast hells angels

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Apart from this general control exercised by the norm of conspicuous waste over the ideal of feminine beauty, there are one or two details which merit specific mention as showing how it may exercise an extreme constraint in detail over men's sense of beauty in women. It has already been noticed that at the stages of economic evolution at which conspicuous leisure is much regarded as a means of good repute, the ideal requires delicate and diminutive hands and feet and a slender waist. These features, together with the other, related faults of structure that commonly go with them, go to show that the person so affected is incapable of useful effort and must therefore be supported in idleness by her owner. She is useless and expensive, and she is consequently valuable as evidence of pecuniary strength.

It results that at this cultural stage women take thought to alter their persons, so as to conform more nearly to the requirements of the instructed taste of the time; and under the guidance of the canon of pecuniary decency, the men find the resulting artificially induced pathological features attractive. So, for instance, the constricted waist which has had so wide and persistent a vogue in the communities of the Western culture, and so also the deformed foot of the Chinese. Both of these are mutilations of unquestioned repulsiveness to the untrained sense. It requires habituation to become reconciled to them. Yet there is no room to question their attractiveness to men into whose scheme of life they fit as honorific items sanctioned by the requirements of pecuniary reputability. They are items of pecuniary and cultural beauty which have come to do duty as elements of the ideal of womanliness.

Although he doesn't mention them, high-heeled shoes also belong to this category, as do tattoos and piercings.

Thorstein's favorite pick-up line: "Hey baby, your unquestionably repulsive mutilations are really turning me on."

All of us here at Wad's Place are completely habituated in our reconciliation of these matters.

• in mississippi
• in the heart of the bible belt (which could be the same thing as the first reason, maybe, but still individual all it's own, so there.)

all i know, is it seems to seriously bother employers to find that i have a nose ring.  as a result, i don't wear it to interviews anymore.  but that sucks.  i was really excited last november when i finally got my nose pierced after wanting it since i was 13.  fast forward to career finding time, and all that joy goes out the window.  which i don't get.  it's not a hooped piercing, it's not blatantly obvious.  you mean to tell me you'll hire someone with a tongue ring before me because mine is visible?  that's wack.  i am not a bad person because of it.  i am no less of a hard worker.  i am no less professional or friendly with it....so what fucking gives?

ahh, it makes my brain hurt.  speaking of making my brain hurt, did you hear about bigfoot being found?  (pictures in those three links, news story here.  that whole thing is trippy as hell.  but at the same time...if it is real, i feel bad for the poor thing.  i think it's fucked up that he was killed by a band of camo'd rednecks just so they could get some money & publicity.  they couldn't just capture it alive?  i guess, in the scheme of things, that'd be even worse for him.  what, with the way people love to turn anything remotely different from them into a pay-per-view freak show.  why?  fuck.  maybe he had a big-footed family.  or whatever.  it's sad, in a way..and crazy that this has really happened...and kind of faintly reminiscent of harry and the hendersons.

Cheerful today, eh?  Oh well, if it makes you feel any better, every preceding generation has largely been on the brink of despair, convinced that the end is near. 

Facebook told me today that my sister had changed her status from "single" to "in a relationship."  Not surprising--she is Bianca to my Katharina--but it seems outrageous that I should have to find out in such a manner! o_O  I marched upstairs to confront her.

Me:  Bella, is it true you're in a relationship?

Bella: Yes...

Me:  With whom??!!

Bella: My friend Sam.

Me: What's his last name?

*Bella tells me*

Me (starting to get worked up): Do Mom and Dad know?

Bella: No.

Me:  How long has this been going on??!!!

Bella: A day.

Me:....Oh.

Bella: Yeah.

I really think I have started managing stress by letting it escape through physical manifestations upon my person.  A milder form might be a change of toenail polish.  When I went to Russia, I dyed my hair dark brown, ostensibly feeling that blonde was "too flashy," but really just craving a change that I could make sense of.  Now, back in the States, and trying to readjust, I used "Color Oops" on my hair to restore it to its former color, and got my ear pierced...again.  Heh.

A little info. about my family in Volograd:

Volodya and Lena own their own puppet theatre.  Lena designs and makes all the dolls herself; Volodya writes the music for the pieces; they collaborate on the stories together.  Dasha helps them w/ voicing and playacting.  I went to a performance in the "dom kulturi;" it was wonderful!  It was about a miserly woman named Belladonna who, when visited by some traveling circus performers, discovers that one of them has the power to grant wishes.  Overcome by greed, she tries to kidnap him, only to be thwarted by a plucky cat.  In the end, Belladonna discovers that the esteem and love of others is more valuable than gold, and runs off to join the circus herself. 

(w/ the Belladonna doll that Lena made for me)

Afterwards Volodya came out and quizzed the children about why Belladonna had had a change of heart, and what lessons might be learned.  They were shocked when later on I told them that this was my first time viewing any kind of puppet performance, and seemed to think my childhood had been rather deprived.

Tmrw. I am off to Florida to visit Heather.  We'll be in Naples for a couple of days, and then are taking the ferry to Key West for the wknd.!  I am so excited.  Lucky I planned this trip, I am already getting cabin fever...

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This is a wallpaper I drew up after I watched the game Never vs Shuttle with Tasteless Casting. The line was so funny to me, I couldn't help but draw it, then I decided to make it into wallpaper size. It's a quick and rough, but it was fun.

Check out more cool Tasteless quotes at the Team Liquid forums, or visit the Tasteless gaming official website.

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In other news. I guess that we aren't going to South Dakota this weekend. Appearantly a "surprise visit" from friends are more important than family. I don't know what the cultural standard is, but last time I checked, you really don't blow off your family becuase friends are coming to visit, my grandparents are there. Can anyone say akward turtles?

Today was alright, I had to take my brother to his registration this morning, and then I had to take him to his orthodontist appointment. After which, I dropped him off and went to my speech practice. Which was exciting. I am the team captain this year...so I have a lot of work cut out for me with a new coach. My goal in it's entirety is to go to NFL and NCFL Nationals. It would be so awesome. I am not exactly where I should be on my All State stuff. I need to get practicing. I will post more later.

Peace.

I walked around with loops of surgical thread (thick surgical thread) through my ears for weeks. When I finally put earrings in I had these little diamond (quartz/rhinestone really) studs. And then I suffered as the cheap earrings flaked off into my ears and if I didn't already have it I developed a nickel allergy. My ears puffed up and turned red and crusty. Pretty icky. I eventually bought some silver rings and put those in.

This first piercing experience and the loops of thread reminded me of being in Nepal, seeing the young girls (as early as four) walking around with small pieces of wood keeping their earholes open. Since many people are poor I presumed that they couldn't yet afford rings for their girl's ears but pierced ears were so much part of Nepalese culture.

And that's just it. Poking things into or through our skin, or decorating it has been something we've been doing since humanity first grabbed that shiny or bright object and started designing. Other cultures have laced things through their noses and lips and chests and genitalia. North American counter culture picked up the piercing traditions of many tribal and African countries. So no matter how trendy, on the edge, neo-goth, punk, burlesque, tribal we've made ourselves here, there was someone else who did it first, probably centuries earlier.

The second time I had one ear pierced, I was not the first, not even in Calgary. I was one of the very few though, especially in Calgary. And that piercing was done with a gun. Ouch. Took a year to heal. Then I went to India where I entertained having my nose pierced, not with the stud through the nostril flesh, but a ring through the septum. I didn't get that done but when I came back I ended up having my other ear pierced again. So I have two holes, close together on the left ear. The right ear has two holes but the second is right before the upper curve.

About three or four years ago I saw a friend in the States who I hadn't seen in a while. She had this really cute diamond stud above her lip, like a beauty mark. It looked great on her and on a spur of the moment kind of thing (with a bit of research on studios) I went in and had a Monroe piercing done. Of all the piercings this one was the most irritating and if I had known the nuisance it would be, I probably wouldn't have had it done. It's also a bad one for wearing at teeth though I haven't had that problem yet.

The piercing itself did not hurt but I kept catching the back on my teeth and pulling it through the flesh. It seems I have an especially thin lip and went in for downsizing three times while it healed. Again the piercing didn't hurt but my gums were so sore for the first week or two, from the stud back (a flat piece) rubbing up and down any time I talked or moved my mouth. Before I finally had the final size (and mine is shorter than most other people's) I would still catch the stud on my teeth. A very disconcerting feeling.

The other annoyance was that any time you have a piercing right on the front of your face, your fingers get in the way and you can't see what you're doing if you have to put in a new piercing. The stud goes through the flesh and the screw is the head/jewel of the piercing and it is incredibly tiny and hard to hold with the wee screw part sticking out. Couple that with trying to get something through the inside of your lip that isn't made for turning inside out to the mirror and you have frustration city. This might not be a big deal but a lot of talking or kissing seems to unscrew the thing.

The first nine months of having the Monroe it seemed to unscrew itself a lot. And where did it do this? In restaurants in the dark about 90% of the time. Amazingly, I've found the head every single time. I carry a spare for the time that I don't find it. I need a few more though. The worst was when it dropped out in a restaurant at lunch and I couldn't get the head back on. A half hour later I tried to get a friend to do it but I couldn't get the stud through the flesh. The hole had already started to close up and I had to go down to the studio three hours later. That hurt like a damn when they had to thread the stud through again, and that was nine months after the piercing.

So yes, it was a pain in the ass. I could go to the flatter nose screw that my friend used in hers, but once I downsize I can't use the bigger pieces again. I need to decide that before I spend more money. Since I went through all the effort to heal, there was no way I was going to get the thing taken out...not until it starts damaging my teeth. I have friends who have had all sorts of body parts pierced: brows, tongues, lips, septums, bridges, backs, necks, nipples, navels, labia, hoods, scrotum, penis...you name it. I think I'm done. But then I thought that before the Monroe.

It amazes me how quickly time gets away from me.  I can't believe that the summer is almost already over.  I have had a crazy summer and the next few weeks are only going to get busier but Ithought I would give you an update on my life.

I think I have only been around two weekends this summer.  We had a funeral again, we can't seem to go any significant length of time without one and this one was hard because of the impact it has in my sister's family.  Marlene was awesome and a very Godly woman.  It was crazy because the funeral was at the church that I grew up in until high school.  I was able to spend some time with people I haven't seen in 10-15 years.  It is amazing how much life has changed in that time.  Julie and I were reflecting on how life is strange in that our lives could look so different if one little thing in our life changed.  What would life be like if I didn't move toPuyallup in high school or if I would have hung out another year with my friends, I have friends that have made some really poor choices but because I moved and because I found a new group of friends and didn't stay that close to the old ones I avoided a lot of pretty crazy stuff.

This summer I have been fully involved in student ministry stuff and it has been crazy.  I have had camping trips, beach retreats, andBBQ's that seem to take so much time that I haven't really gotten a chance to just hang out with students.  Don't get me wrong I love the retreats, I'm looking forward towater skiing and camping for 5 days next week with High school students and the weekend after going to the beach with College students, it just seems like it is so easy to be busy doing all of these things that just getting a chance to hang out with a student seems to take a backseat.  I say this because this is something that I wrestle with a lot.  This idea that I need to be doing all of the crazy youth type stuff rather than just being with students, getting to journey with them.  It makes me want to do something like cancel youth group for the summer and just plan time with kids instead of the big production that usually happens.  Maybe next year.  I'm excited though, this summer has been good and the events have provided some of what I'm talking about.

Julie and I celebrated 10 years of marriage last week.  This is another thing that amazes me, the fact that we have been married for this long.  It sure doesn't feel like it.  I love being married to Julie.  She challenges me in so many ways, but more importantly she is such a huge support and encourager in my life, I know that I couldn't possible have grown as much if it wasn't for her in my life.  We have so much fun together and it sucks when we aren't together, and to think it has been 10 years of feeling this way, and we are only growing closer.  Pretty dang cool.  We didn't do anything super exciting for our anniversary except shut our phones off for three days and just enjoy playing around town.  We went to the zoo, a car show, and hung out together.  It was nice to just relax together and not feel like we had to go do anything.  We are hoping to get a trip to possible Hawaii in November however that might be a long shot.  Our finances are tight as always but it would be great to get a trip away together.  It doesn't really matter as long as we get to be together (cue the cheesy music and sighs from the audience).

In the midst of this busy summer I have also been working on my first wedding in September.  I am going to be marrying Julie's brother Joe and his fiancee Bethany.  It has been fun to get to know them better through the counseling but it has been a challenge to try and fit that into an already busy schedule.  I sometimes have a hard time thinking that I would have any wisdom to contribute to anyone else but again I realize that it isn't my wisdom rather what God has revealed to me through my own journey.

Ear piercing, I know I have already posted on this but I thought I would just follow up, it really has been interesting to hear people's reaction to my piercing as if they could understand the reasons behind why I would do something.  It amazes me how quickly people pass judgment, he is doing it for attention, to fit in, to be young, he is stupid.  Even after I explained to people what I was experiencing with God that lead to the piercing they still think it was for some other reason, as if my explanation wasn't good enough.  Really, do you know my walk with God, have you experienced what I have experienced?  Didn't think so, I still don't know what I think about the piercings but given peoples reaction it makes me want to go out and get more piercings and a crap load of tattoes.  Don't worry that isn't happening.  But, if nothing else peoples reactions have just varified my reasons for the piercings in the first place and that I guess is all that matters.

Also, yesterday as a staff we had a chance to listen to Peter Scazzero and his wife present on going back to move forward.  The idea of by understanding our personal history specifically family lines we can understand some of what motivates us in ministry.  It was really interesting especially working on our own genogram (family tree with a relational, emotional, and social bent) it can be hard to look at and see some of the dysfunction that exists and see how even though you work hard to not make some of the same mistakes as your family they do happen.  After the lecture we had a chance to hand out with Peter and his wife Geri.  It was cool to hear there heart for churches and pastors.  If you haven't read their book Emotionally Healthy Spirituality you need to and you need to NOW.  I'm serious go get it now.  I will wait... It has had a significant impact on our leadership team and continues to challenge how we look at life and ministry.  Good stuff.

Also, I went through a bit of technology hell this last month as my computer which is pretty new and pretty awesome was being stupid, forcing me to reinstall Vista.  The frustrating thing besides taking almost two weeks to get my computer back up and running is now it works perfect in fact it works better than when I first got it which leads me to believe that the smart people of Dell didn't have things set up correctly from the start, I don't know what is more frustrating the fact that it took me two weeks to figure out how to get it all back up and running or that for 4 months I have been using a gimpy computer.  Good news is it is working and working well.  Of course now I'm having some mobile phone issues we shall see what happens but it could lead to getting a new windows mobile phone which sucks but is also exciting for a tech-junkie like myself.  Currently I'm trying to see if it is a battery and am upgrading the operating system on my current phone to see if all is fixed but it might require being replaced to truely be fixed.  Stay tuned I have been thinking about writing a blog about technology I can't live without because, "I love technology, not as much as you, you see..."  (anyone guess the movie quote, for more bonus points)

To sum up my summer I don't think there is room to fit much else into it but it defiantly has been an adventure and I'm learning a lot about myself, God, and church in the process.

I can hear you talking but I can't look away from that big metal loop, with a bead, hooked into your eyebrow...

I have no idea what you just said.

If you want to be taken seriously, maybe reconsider the location of your piercings...

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While I currently only have three piercings, I already have the next two decided upon and have begun to think of what next. The next two will be an industrial in my left helix (the cartilage at the top of the ear) followed by a nape piercing (surfacing piercing at the base of the neck).

Working in a (somewhat) corporate environment has kept me from wanting to do any kind of facials piercings, which is limiting me as to where I can have needles shoved through me. Suggestions are welcome.

On a side note, it's nearing four in the afternoon and I just poured myself a heaping bowl of cereal. I didn't do so because I'm some kind of cereal addict or because the cereal is that good, it's Raisan Bran if you must know, but rather because I'm feeling quite lazy. It is, after all, a long weekend and long weekends are for being lazy and relaxing, no?

In truth, for me it's not a long weekend. I am one of the fortunate souls who will be showing up to work on Monday. One of the perks (if you want to call it that) of my job is that I get what's called an "optional holiday" day for nearly all statuatory holidays. Roughly this means that because Monday is a stat holiday, I get a day off either on the Monday or some other time of my choosing. I think that's pretty bloody convenient that I get to pick when I take my holidays, not the government.

Getting back to addictions, I thought that I was fairly heavily addicted to Rock Band. It turns out that my daughter didn't fall from the tree as I think her addiction surpasses mine. Oh, and she's not yet 6. Okay, so she can't play the guitar (or bass) and she's not so hot on the drums. She's actually pretty good at singing though. She already knows nearly all the words to In Bloom, Dani California, and Celebrity Skin. She seems to rather enjoy it when I play Reptilia, so I think that'll be her next song to learn.

Seriously though, when your five year old starts belting out Nirvana word-for-bloody-word in a crowded elevator, how can I be anything but proud?

It's very sweet when someone I've never met before steps out of the blog shadows to asked about me. I didn't mean to not post for so many days, but I've been writing my...ummm, I've been writing a lot...A LOT, and I'm ecstatic with the progress I'm making on Burn at the moment.

Since I now share a computer with N, (because he somehow murdered his own computer), I can't always just fire up Lola (yes, my computer is named after the song "whatever Lola wants") and type the night away. Nope, not when you're an uber cool mom, who clearly remembers being 16- and being constantly hassled to 'get off the phone !!!' understands that there's a lot of teenage stuff to talk about-like the sorry state of this country, and the measly candidates we must choose from (OK, perhaps that doesn't come up in most teenage conversations on a Saturday night, then again, most 16 year-olds aren't like N, who's currently teaching himself Russian and German simultaneously)

Anyway, I'm Old School for the moment, (most of the time, anyway): the old notebook and pen style. But it's OK, because I just bought 20 notebooks last week (wide-ruled, of course), and I have some fabulous pens that actually make you want to write-not to mention they were very inexpensive (24 for $2.44!!) They're called Cello silks and there are 5 colors: Pink being my favorite, of course. If you go shopping for pens, I highly recommend these.

Did I mention that if I weren't a writer I'd do fairly well in consumer marketing??

I've written some very vital scenes, and its going so smoothly that it's sort of scary... My brain says 'ok, let's talk about the airport', and I actually obey, no problem or hassle! I begin writing, and the words flow effortlessly. Of course this means that my brain is constantly telling the story, so when people speak to me, I'm usually oblivious to what they're saying. This isn't so bad, considering N and D are usually the only people that speak to me here, and they expect this sort of thing. This also means that my dinner for the evening was handful of Doritos (Cool Ranch, of course) on a napkin and a glass of flat Dr. Pepper. But I don't have a single complaint-I'm in full mad writer-mode, and I'm determined to finish this story-finally. I've just checked my emails, and my apologies to you if you emailed me since Thursday, (you know who you are). I'm doing emails this morning, so if you've recently emailed me-and you managed to not piss me off somehow ( you probably don't have a clue, do you?) and instead were nice and sweet, you'll be getting an email shortly (I hate the word shortly, don't you?)

Someone asked when I was going to post Madhouse Fancies, so I'm making a shameless plug for those of you who've missed it somehow. It's right here...and I still really like it. Sometimes when I've finished something, I can't stand the sight of it for a while-like disgusting leftovers of the delicious dinner from the night before, or a person you really liked once upon a time, but now you...OK, you get it-but with Madhouse and Darkness, I'm still pleased. At the moment, the same can be said for Burn. Reading over the scenes I'd already done was still satisfying. So fingers crossed that my luck continues. My goal was to finish Burn by the end of the year, but at this rate, I may be finished by Halloween.

I've put Madhouse Fancies on my tiny ipod, and I still absolutely love the music; Music boxes are one of my favorite things to collect, and I've often saved broken music boxes from being thrown away...then I take them apart and try to fix them; sometimes, I've succeeded in making a very eerie song from a very ordinary song and sometimes, I've completely failed at repairing them, but I save the pieces just in case I figure something out one day. These, of course are stored with my broken clocks and the occasional lock, somewhere in my massive dump of possessions in the storage unit I've mentioned before. I like to collect odd things: keys, for example-(send me your old keys and I'll search the world for the missing locks), and lately N and I have discussed creating a gnome cemetery, because all of the gnomes around this town are either decapitated or missing limbs. I suspect it's from their late night battles with the cats, or one another. There's only one gnome still intact and unharmed around here, and he's wearing a very arrogant smile these days, so perhaps I'm not just crazy and there is a gang war between the various gnomes and just maybe the felines are involved as well..Wow, it's either much too late or much too early for me to be awake, so excuse the ramble.

My four year-old fan thinks Madhouse 'sounds a bit scary', but yesterday she added that "it's very cool that my voice is 'inside' of mp3 players, just like Miley Cyrus"...hmm, what could I possibly say to that?

I have a few pieces that I plan to work on again soon, and then pitch to Eric, (some have been inspired by his music), and safetycopy recently played a sample of a Madhouse remix, using my original vocals, and its a surprising and very cool twist on my words, so I look forward to hearing it and putting the link up for you when he gives it to me. When I've added the downloads page, there will be a few odds and ends that I haven't posted before, and hopefully it will be up in a few days. I'll let you know, of course.

Ok, finally, a few days ago, someone emailed me for the first time and told me how ''fascinated they were with my world ' (and yes, I have asked for their permission to mention this and yes they've agreed), somehow they got the impression that my world is a "Goth lifestyle, with angry music, tattoos and piercings".... So, while yes, my world is very...extremely dark at times, I'm not always so Goth myself... there's no tattoos (But I used to be a henna tattoo addict) and piercings- except the typical ear piercings. For a while I was sporting a fake nose ring, which some people loved, but I felt drew too much attention to my already terrible nose, (which getting broke once upon a time made even worse.) I have NO problems with tattoos and piercings, I may get a tattoo one day-somewhere- but I have commitment phobia, so who knows? and I would really love to have a septum piercing, and I wouldn't mind green dreads either,( Ani Difranco style) So to show you how absolutely tame I am in comparison to the strange idea some people have of me, I've decided to put up another photo (BDD be damned!) This, my lovelies, is the face of mad writer-mode, complete with pj's and pigtails....a perfectly sweet girl without a single trace of darkness, right????

Ok, all BS aside, I'm not sure when I'll post again-maybe tonight, maybe tomorrow...But I know how much I hate visiting a blog that's only updated once a year or so, so I can assure you it won't be too long before I'll be back to spread some cheer again.

Love & Darkness~13

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so im taking my nipple piercings out today.  its scary.  i've had them almost 8 years, and i hated my nipples before, i have sort puffy nipples.  so to have neither decoration or big boobs for a while will be weird.  haha